Happy Valentines Day - especially to my Valentine, Deedra! I am so blessed to be married to you. I love you tons!
My marriage and my wife, specifically, are very much responsible for me discovering and engaging in the emotional world. Before Deedra, I don't think I knew what emotions were and I certainly didn't know how to properly interpret them or deal with them. Thanks, D, for bringing to me the spice of life!
This leads my thoughts to the past week... The Man Trip. I hosted a trip to Durango, Colorado for the men of the Ranch. There were 12 of us - from eight year old Joe to sixty-something Gary. It was several days of super bowl watching, skiing, hiking, snow shoeing, fly fishing, and hanging out. Sounds pretty good, huh? Well, it was - mostly. I really enjoyed being there - I love the mountains and DMR is a special place for me with some really special memories. I love to ski - especially with my boys. Joe, Jon and I spend four great days tearing up the slopes. We did all the familiar runs, had a picnic on the mountain, caught some air (even the little jumps we count!) and challenged our comfort zone on a couple of black trails. I enjoyed several great one-on-one visits with other guys. It was good times.
But, I could not shake the uneasy feelings. Something wasn't right. I was having a good time, but I was anxious. I was anxious about being "host" and concerned about a few details, but mostly I felt, in my gut, that something was just not as it was supposed to be. It wasn't enough to send me into a tailspin, but it was there.
This week, back home. I am at peace. I believe God made me for relationships and I am really trying hard to work on being more relational. My primary relationship is with Him! After that: Deedra, then my family, then everyone else God puts in my path. I think I missed my bride. DMR is a special family place and they weren't all there. I think it's that simple. It "colored" my mood enough for me to notice. Thank you , Lord, for my family.
Pray for the men of NLR. We are starting a bible study with Alex Hedgepeth. It will be good to work on my relationship with other men. We can build on the good times!
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Thanks Russ for the beautiful valentine. You are doing a great job keeping our blog up to date. Now we need to teach the girls to do it.
Great blog Russ...happy that you, Jon and Joe had the time together.
God bless you for missing the one relationship for which you left your Mother and Father. You're experiencing "cleaving" exactly as God intended. I think this is the essence of marriage - that relationship hurts when she is not close.
Thanks for the blog.
Your Dad.
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